"Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward in the same direction."
-Antoine de Saint-Exupery

im the most happiest person in the world because of him

I miss you like crazy but look at the moon tonight baby. See, we're not that far apart.

when its cold in my world,

its gonna b his warm embrace that i miss.

when my day is dark

its gonna b his smile that lights up my heart that i miss.

when shivers run down my spine,

its gonna b his gentle kiss that comforts me that i miss.

when hes not in arms reach,

its gonna b him that i miss.

baby, my world, my life is just not gonna b the same without you because you are my life! for the next couple of days, my better half is not a part of me. the reason why i smile at the beginning of my day and the last words "i love you" i hear before i go to bed. the only way i may smile after a bad day or when im just not in the mood. im going to miss you so much but i do hope that you have a good time in north carolina! baby, you are my everything and yes, its only a couple of days but its gonna feel like forever without you. on your trip i hope you remember that i love you more than anything in this world and more than anyone can love anything, mwahhhh ♥

adrian alexander hodgson

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hes the reason for the smile on my face

the laughter in my life

the happiness i feel.

hes my only one now and forever.

he makes me the happiest person in the world,

each and every day.

everyday were together

just makes my love for him grow

into something unbelieveable.

what we got is strong

and nothing in this world can part me from him.

yes we fight

yes we fuss

yes we get angry with each other

but only because i care about him so much

that i couldnt stand to let him go

anytime,

ever.

its the world's greatest feeling

in love and being loved.

we are gonna have to work at this

everyday

for as long as we want to b together

but im willing to do that

because i want him

i want all of him

everyday

till the day that i die.

IM HIS AND HES MINE.

* happy five months my baby*

try sleeping with a broken heart
and unless you seen the pain i feel
baby you dont kno what its like
try staying up till 3 in the morning
waiting and waiting
for something to happen
but nothing ever does
try falling asleep with tears in your eyes
and wake up to find
that the tears are dried
but the heartache you feel still there
try having all of the negative thoughts
all bunched up into one moment
the moment when youre lying there
wondering what hes doing
or where he is
why he hasnt messaged or called you yet
try being me and then see if you can
try sleeping with a broken heart

dont tell me youre going to do something
and then not do it
this just develops expectations
and when exceptations arent made
things fall apart
you may fall apart
and i did
you say things that you wish you never said
you think things that has never entered your mind before
and it all sums up to negativity
no one has seen me this way
no one has felt the tears on my pillow
no one knows the pain that i feel
except me
where the smile on my face hides it all
and when my eyes are dried from the tears that i have shed
maybe one day you may see
how much you truely mean to me
how much time and effort i spend on this
how much im willing to give up for you
maybe one day you may see

Gotta Work For What You Want And Baby I'm Giving It My All

baby hold me when the sun refuses to shine
when youre the only one that can light up my day
light up my whole world, inside and out
baby b by my side when i call your name
when my heart calls for no one but you and you only
b the only warmth i feel when my heart is empty
and wrap me around your arms and never let go
baby b waiting there for me
when things get tough, when i need a hand
when i need you more than anyone
when things go wrong and when im not strong
my boyfriend, my lover
but most importantly, my full time bestfriend
baby stay with me through it all

i needed you when the sun shut down on me

when all i could feel was the cold air rushin inside of me

and all i wanted was to b in your arms

to feel the way i did

i needed you when everything else didnt matter anymore

when my heart was broken and empty

i needed you when no one else was there

and the only words i could say

were the lyrics to my songs

i needed you when tears fell down on my pillow

when i felt lonley and all alone in the world

i needed you when i called for your name

but you never came

i needed you when my heart called for yours

but it never replied

i needed you to spend the lonley hours

but the time just kept ticking

i needed you but you werent there

Sagittarius & Aquarius

When Sagittarius and Aquarius join together in a love match, Aquarian ideals and Sagittarian knowledge combine to make them a creative and unique couple. This partnership is uninhibited, and while it can get competitive with these two, there's never a dull moment! Underneath any romantic overtone, there exists a great friendship; their Signs are two apart and this tends to give them an ability to communicate well as well as an excellent rapport. Both are idealistic and excited about life, and together they enjoy great times. Together, the two can fly without fear of falling. They are both loyal and devoted to one another, and they can get past a lot together.

What's the best aspect of the Sagittarius-Aquarius relationship? It's their ability to resolve difficult issues when they put their hearts in the matter. Mutable Fire and Fixed Air cover all the bases: These partners can stick with an idea once it's firmly implanted. Their formidable combination makes theirs a relationship of outward motion as well as inward depth.

YUUUUUP , WE'LL LAST!

[ us against the world; i love you ]

aug 17th , 2009 :
kept me smiling the whole day

From him to me : " Baby , baby , its been just about 9 days youve been on this trip , and believe me , i missed you alot compared to a bit. Your kiss , your touch , its been way to long , just too much . Your absence was missed greatly , I hope your time away hasnt changed you to hate me . My little joke poem for you , just a little thought because i care bout you . I told you everything for us that is yet to come , i mean it dearly , better believe me , dont b dumb . I love you with all my heart , a wish from me , for us not to part . "

the sweetest words i have ever heard from the man that i love dearly . the most important person in my life today and forevermore . hes the one who hold the biggest space in my heart and the one who i think of constantly .

From me to you with much love :

" Im crazy bout you and with one touch , one smile , one kiss , i kno its true . I never felt anything so strong bout anyone , its all brand new . You smile at me and it lights my whole world . You are my sunshine that lights my whole heart . Baby its you and me today and forever . You belong to me and im yours eternally . You are my blessing , ill treat you with respect . Love you long time with everything you expect . Baby you are the truth , behind all the lies . I kno i can come to you when everyone else just stands by . You make me feel special , you make me feel so right . That theres always someone that loves and cares for me all day and night . Please say youll stay and never let go , cause i dont kno where i would b without you here with me . So with that , this is my little poem for you , to let you kno that i love you and everything i say is true . "

k so im gone to florida for a week and a half , woot woot !

white sanded beaches , chillin with the fam , swimmmmming , chillin with my homie mickey mouse and dunoe bout my girl cinderella , more swimmmming , tan , shopping , tan some moreee !

yuuuup , august was gona b bombbbb !

except the fact that my baby is 100000000000 miles away from me ! fuck , im gona miss you so much baby ! i kno i said that bout 10000000 times the day we chilled before i left but man , its your lovin that got me feeling like this .

soooo , im gona b in florida while youre in sauga missing you like fuckin crazy and iunno what youll b doing . yes im gona have a pretty fuckin awesome time but youre not gona b with me to have a pretty fuckin awesome time !

if only if only .. you had a car and dunoe , ROAD TRIP BABY ! haha , but dont worry cause one day we will , RIGHT ?! :)

im gona miss your smile , your laugh , the way you kiss me and hold me , the way you love me , the way you look at me with those light brown eyes of yours that im dying to have . LOL but basically all im sayin im going to miss every meter , centimeter and millimeter of you ! baby i love you so much and i dont forget bout me within this coming week and a half !

you promised me and i promised you , dont break it <3

its like everyday my love for you grows and grows . we already been through fusses and fights but baby look at us now . we got through them , talked them out and compromised . i see so much in you and its like youre the only one i wana b with .

i kno i say this so much but i just dont get tired of it . i fuckin love you , august third oh nine , happiest day of my life . <3

i fucked up and now i have to face the concequences for my actions . take responsibility for what i did and admit it . the last thing i wanted to do was hurt you but i did . i was stupid for ever thinking i could just forget bout it and everything was alright . but really , it was worse to keep it a secret . i thought i had it all figured out , that it would just disappear , like it never happened . all my problems would go away if i never talked bout it or told anyone . but karma's a bitch and you cant hide from the truth forever . you have every right to b mad at me and call me all those things . it hurts but i was wrong and i made a mistake . all i can really do now is ask for your forgiveness . baby i might have lied to you but when i say i love you , i mean it . i cant imagine my life without you in it .
life's a rollar coaster ..

its all about the family and how we roll . it started with the four of us and at the end of it all , when everything is said and done , its gona end with the four of us . shit happens and people fuck up but i do believe everyone deserves a second chance . no ones perfect and everyone makes mistakes . i believe that we should forgive and forget . the only people that are gona b their @ the end of the day is your fam . its them and only them . you got no one else . yes , friends come and go and change is constant but blood is thicker than water . its a new chapter in all of our lives and the best thing about it is we got each other along the way .

words cant explain how much i love this guy . when i thought that i was out of love and done , he came outta the blue and was there to remind me that i was worth better . that i deserve more than the other ones bullshit . that i was a young woman that should b loved more than that . and baby you opened my eyes and now i can see clearly that i really only wana b with you . i do hope that youre not a mistake , cause baby this feels so right . i do hope that you wont b a regret cause you make everything seem so perfect . you cant imagine how happy you make me . words truely cant describe it . the way you send shivers down my spine when your lips touch mine . the way you touch my body so gently . you always know how to put a smile on my face evn if im having the worst possible days . you like me for me , not the clothes i wear , the house i live in , my family history or the makeup on my face LOL . i couldnt imagine what kinda summer i would b having if it wasnt for you . you got me up till 4 in the morning on my phone but you never fail me . i dont evn have to say anything for you to kno that im not in a good mood or i had a bad day . you just kno and thats what i love bout you . lets make it work my baby , my love , my life , my everything <3

my world came crashin down on me in less than a minute . i never knew that it could happen but it did . i found out the truth , the lies , the right people , the wrong people , the ones i can trust and the ones that i cant . you think you know something and with one action it changes everything . its true when they say actions speck louder than words . not a million words , a 21651861 hour speech or the sweetest things you do will ever change the way i see you now . the damage is done and you cant really do anything bout it . people mistaken what happened and didnt believe it cause they thought you were sucha a sweet and gentle person . little did they know what ive seen , heard and felt . nothing can ever make me forget what you did and said . how can someone soooo close to you , someone that shares the same blood as you , the person that made you and was a part of your life hurt you the most . its doesnt make sense to me and i really dont kno how im going to forgive and forget . lifes a rollar coaster ...

its been a while since i felt this way about anyone and they felt the same way about me . but why when everything seems like its picture perfect , a kodak moment , that he may b the one to make things all work out .. theres the huge obstacle that stands in the way . why do i always get so caught up in difficult relationships . but all of that really doesnt matter to me cause in the end , in my heart and head i kno that i wana b the one he comes home to every night , the one that makes everything worth while and the first think he thinks bout when he wakes up and the last before he goes to bed . its like his hand fits perfectly in mine , the way he holds me close and doesnt wana let go . hes the one that cant wait to kiss me again , evn though its been less than a minute since we last did . i hope hes not a mistake . baby , im fallin for you , but this dont evn feel like fallin . lifes a rollar coaster <3

its been a while now , dont really kno what youre doing and what kinda shit you been up to but i hope youre good . words can explain why im still asking myself these questions . there were no tears , and it was quick and painless . so whats the reasons for all of this . when i think everything is said and done , you always come back and i just dont understand why . everything seemed perfect and its confusing and sometimes i wish i never met you . but whats done is done , and what happened before happened . youre not a regret , youre not a mistake . i guess just a lesson to b learned . so for that i kinda thank you for all the things you put me through . in a way , the girl i am today is because of you . i may not kno all the answers to love and life but i guess i learned a few things along the way . but lifes a rollar coaster

remember , youre just another one of his girls he goes to when the one he loves the most is not there . he sweet talks you and calls you his baby but at the end of the day , he really doesnt mean it . lifes confusing but thats the fun part bout it . all you can really do is take one day at a time , take in what you learned and use it to never make that mistake again . that was the old me , and this is the new me . fear no man , trust no bitch .

A NEW VIEW ON THINGS

sometimes its better off ..

- not to trust anyone 100%
- not to rely on anyone but yourself .
- not to show any emotion or feeling you know you shouldnt be showing .
- not to get used to things cause change is constant .
- not to get attached cause people come and go .
- to think about every action cause it will have its consequences .
- to be nice with a limit , DONT LET PEOPLE WALK OVER YOU .
- to be observant with things to know how things go .

and last of all , its better off just to do things for yourself cause thats all it will be in the end .

JUST YOU .