aug 17th , 2009 :
kept me smiling the whole day

From him to me : " Baby , baby , its been just about 9 days youve been on this trip , and believe me , i missed you alot compared to a bit. Your kiss , your touch , its been way to long , just too much . Your absence was missed greatly , I hope your time away hasnt changed you to hate me . My little joke poem for you , just a little thought because i care bout you . I told you everything for us that is yet to come , i mean it dearly , better believe me , dont b dumb . I love you with all my heart , a wish from me , for us not to part . "

the sweetest words i have ever heard from the man that i love dearly . the most important person in my life today and forevermore . hes the one who hold the biggest space in my heart and the one who i think of constantly .

From me to you with much love :

" Im crazy bout you and with one touch , one smile , one kiss , i kno its true . I never felt anything so strong bout anyone , its all brand new . You smile at me and it lights my whole world . You are my sunshine that lights my whole heart . Baby its you and me today and forever . You belong to me and im yours eternally . You are my blessing , ill treat you with respect . Love you long time with everything you expect . Baby you are the truth , behind all the lies . I kno i can come to you when everyone else just stands by . You make me feel special , you make me feel so right . That theres always someone that loves and cares for me all day and night . Please say youll stay and never let go , cause i dont kno where i would b without you here with me . So with that , this is my little poem for you , to let you kno that i love you and everything i say is true . "

k so im gone to florida for a week and a half , woot woot !

white sanded beaches , chillin with the fam , swimmmmming , chillin with my homie mickey mouse and dunoe bout my girl cinderella , more swimmmming , tan , shopping , tan some moreee !

yuuuup , august was gona b bombbbb !

except the fact that my baby is 100000000000 miles away from me ! fuck , im gona miss you so much baby ! i kno i said that bout 10000000 times the day we chilled before i left but man , its your lovin that got me feeling like this .

soooo , im gona b in florida while youre in sauga missing you like fuckin crazy and iunno what youll b doing . yes im gona have a pretty fuckin awesome time but youre not gona b with me to have a pretty fuckin awesome time !

if only if only .. you had a car and dunoe , ROAD TRIP BABY ! haha , but dont worry cause one day we will , RIGHT ?! :)

im gona miss your smile , your laugh , the way you kiss me and hold me , the way you love me , the way you look at me with those light brown eyes of yours that im dying to have . LOL but basically all im sayin im going to miss every meter , centimeter and millimeter of you ! baby i love you so much and i dont forget bout me within this coming week and a half !

you promised me and i promised you , dont break it <3

its like everyday my love for you grows and grows . we already been through fusses and fights but baby look at us now . we got through them , talked them out and compromised . i see so much in you and its like youre the only one i wana b with .

i kno i say this so much but i just dont get tired of it . i fuckin love you , august third oh nine , happiest day of my life . <3

i fucked up and now i have to face the concequences for my actions . take responsibility for what i did and admit it . the last thing i wanted to do was hurt you but i did . i was stupid for ever thinking i could just forget bout it and everything was alright . but really , it was worse to keep it a secret . i thought i had it all figured out , that it would just disappear , like it never happened . all my problems would go away if i never talked bout it or told anyone . but karma's a bitch and you cant hide from the truth forever . you have every right to b mad at me and call me all those things . it hurts but i was wrong and i made a mistake . all i can really do now is ask for your forgiveness . baby i might have lied to you but when i say i love you , i mean it . i cant imagine my life without you in it .
life's a rollar coaster ..